When Nothing Should Survive
by Eilidh17

She was revolted, disgusted in her own skin, terrified of every thought that held even the barest scent of a memory of the last few years.  Her body now truly hers again, retained the scars of betrayal, which she begrudgingly wore like an ill-fitting cloak.
Sarah no longer understood the concept of freedom.  The prison of her own mind was no better than the protective custody she now faced on Earth and the curiosity her presence generated in those around her had her almost crawling out of her skin.
And then there was Daniel.
She despised him.
The depth of her hatred filled her every waking moment and mirrored the nightmares that plagued her sleep.  Osiris, in a game that he was willing to play for all eternity, loved Daniel—a thought that sickened her—and with every memory the Goa’uld unlocked of their once torrid relationship, his affection grew.
At first, Sarah took Osiris’ affection towards Daniel as meaningless and hollow; just another attempt to taunt her, another dirty mind trick.  But if there was one thing she soon realized, it was that she could no more keep her emotions a secret from him, than he could from her.  Osiris bared his soul, deliberately letting her experience every nauseating moment of a life that spanned thousands of years.  With time, though, the shock and revolution she felt morphed into a type of numbness that wrapped itself around his bloody crimes and took away the pain they caused her.
But not Daniel.
When he died, Sarah didn’t need to feel remorse, Osiris did it for her.  He took away her yearning to mourn and made it his own.  And when they were watching Daniel sleep, while manipulating his dreams, the pleasure gained was all real, only it wasn’t hers.
All semblance of innocence—and Daniel was innocent—was lost, replace by the effigy of a man who now reminded her of her beast.
Sarah Gardiner could no more face the man she still loved any more than she could Osiris.

The End

 

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